Always With You

Strumming Some Heartstrings

Friday, October 15, 2010

Note: This is an emo post, You can choose not to read this if you think it is crappy...

I had quite an awesome night with 1032 ytr at my belated bday BBQ. Although i may not be that close to many of you, i skip most class outings, i dont do PW with you guys and I tend to walk into my own world when studying, but i think I had a great time throughout the past few months.

Thanks for sabo-ing me yesterday night with the 'sexy' dress and underwear as quoted by jerrold. =.=

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This morning, i sneaked into the graduation ceremony for the J2s.

Last Year, when promotional results were released. I thought, no harm staying one year too.. I will just do better than I did in the year to come. Then, it was orientation and class bonding activities. Honestly, it was definitely great to make new friends and everything felt the same.

But amongst all these was the common question, "how does it feel like to retain?"

I would reply, "not bad, at least i have more experience and opportunities this year".

I really thought this way.

Then, during promos period, i saw how Jerrold tweet about not being able to see familiar faces next year. And how it was 50-50 chance of him being J2 and being Sergeant Tan next year. I thought to myself, no big deal. You can still keep in touch with your friends?

Today, as I sat at the AVA place watching the graduation ceremony, (I missed the 0911 video montage), it was purely laughter. All those videos done by the school staff, really hilarious i must say. I couldnt spot anyone from up there but i think the atmosphere was pretty light.

Then, when i sat with Silin at the 0911 bench, while they munch on pizzas that the CTs bought, i can't help but feel some sort of distance. Well, i was really full and had a sore throat; not in the right condition to eat pizza and spring rolls. But, i thought, am I there just to watch them eat? Should I start a convo with the rest, other than my dear friend silin? I don't even know what to say to fann and teddy. What more the rest.

Since when did it become so weird. No common topic with my PW leader, nothing much to say with the Ex-Choir President except how her the wind is blowing her hair into her mouth and getting her a drink, no else except prelims results with the scholar of the class.

Even the closest of the closest, there wasn't much left to talk about. It's just not right when everyone is nearing the end point when i am just at the starting point only.

I am glad that there was still silin though. Kinda happy that we have never-ending topics to talk about. Right from the start, from how we will walk to serangoon mrt everyday together to the noob-est thing we will do to how we will sms each other at 12am to catch up on the small things that happen in our lives.... I love you dear friend! Thanks KOK silin a.k.a noobling a.k.a guo ling gao. =D

The other day, after the promos maths paper, i had a chance to talk to keeyuen, xiankai and hannah. I realized how much i missed out throughout the year. That, was actually the 1st time i had a catch-up session about the class. A joyful chat of an hour plus definitely could not allow me to know everything that happened. But i think it was a great opportunity to know some of the things that happened. Funny how they were distracted that they only did 1 maths qn during that hour plus. I enjoyed the chat with you guys, hannah, xiankai and keeyuen!

Despite all that happened, i can only say, the feeling is indescribable. Sad? Weird? Happy? Some of everything, i think.

Just as Jerrold says, "No more familiar faces next year."

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Kamalia, Jingyi, Samantha, Victoria, Louise, Ada, Ansabel, Eugene, Kim Ying, Melody, Wei Ting, Wiphaporn, Zhi Qing, Gasper, Pauline, Songru, Xiao Hui, Shammini, Isabella, Jun Kai:

Please dont retain. I really dont want you to go through this feeling and i wanna study and play with you guys next year. I dont want to see any familiar faces when i look at class 1132 next yr.

Jun Kai, please promote so that i have someone to compete econs with. haha.

Kamalia, you know i love to 'touch' you. What will I do when you are not around?

Samantha, where will all the eyecandy story be without you?

Louise, no more talking about the chem teacher and copying of tutorials w/o you.

Eugene, no one to lend me the phone to surf internet during lit lectures!

Zhi Qing, i still want my paramore CD but where will all the paramore news be when you are not around?

Melody, you know i love you very very much, without you, my life is nothing.... ;)

Ada, haha no more seeing you scold gasper and get judo-ed by junkai..

Wiphaporn, i cannot 'touch' you and disturb you anymore.

Xiao Hui, no more lesbian-ism in class!!!

Shammini, where will all the noise be?

Pauline, no more studying partner!

Isabella, haha no more funny actions by you in class

Jingyi, i wanna see more of you and gasper's drama!

Weiting, and no more you interrupting JY and gasper's r/s! haha.

Ansabel, chem tutorials w/o you will be different.

Victoria, my east partner will be gone...

Kimying, you know there's so many things that i can't do without you! ;)

And Jerrold, Please no Sergeant Tan next year!

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After all these, just wanna say thanks to mdm ang and ms lim for today and for the last year!

Much enough said, as 0911 graduates, i can say i am happy that you guys are completing this journey soon.

I know i am not far, I may be a year behind but i am sure i will catch up soon, really really soon.

I am almost there, just J1.5.

(this post sounds so wrong.. sorry to have wasted your time if you think this way...)

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