Always With You

Strumming Some Heartstrings

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Chinese oral last friday!

Topic was on Speakers Corner. was like omg la... oh well, i think i did a pretty good job depsite stuttering abit and used 'then' once. LOL.

Watch the DSA-CO audition afterwards w yuxin. The percussion guy not bad la. just that he dont know how to play piano! so can't take over me....

Oh and the NYJC staff VS ex-national players charity match. only watched abit. couldnt even tell who was playing man. but it was not bad i guess. Ms scully came to support mr bong. haha.

Anw, on thurs night, i went parkway to meet liyin for dinner at ichiban boshi. Met Ms sim before that! omg la, always when i have something to do w liyin, miss sim will also be somehow related. hahaha. talked abit and stuff. then went to look for liyin.... i ordered my super huge portion wazen set as usual. a plate of sashimi sushi w raw stuff like tuna, squid, salmon, egg. then 4 pcs of salmon sashimi, a bowl of udon, a tofu and watermelon. Damn full but worth the money la.. haha..

Miss sim told me KC's 80th anniversary Chinese essay compilation book is out alr! She read my essay somemore, but only 2 para cos she dont really know how to read chinese. she ask me how come she see that i used quite abit of writing techniques like metaphors etc in my essay but nvr apply to english. hahaha. when i saw CLS on fri, i told her that and she was like cos chinese easier to use mah. which i totally agree. But the point is, yay! i can collect my book le! so excited to see it man! afterall, i spent so much time writing/typing it. CLS and laura even helped me edit! haha. gonna collect it tmr i think! REALLY EXCITED!

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Now, i really dedicate this to chen laoshi. I think she is the one who is putting my through happiness and sadness. From last year, i always enjoyed her chinese lesson. Her lesson to me, is a mean to destress; i nvr stepped out of her class without laughing once. During meet-the-parents session last year, i just totally breakdown while my dad was talking to mdm ang and ms lim. i remb before i went in i msg her saying that i was super scared. she replied me abit late though, i was alr inside when the msg came. after that, i saw her at the fountain, she was waiting for her dad. and she was really nice, consoled me and stuff.

then this year, i had a few meaningful talks w her. Mostly about studies. we made a deal that this july, i would bring good news to exchange for good news. We talked about how if i did well, she will give me a treat. Out of so many ppl who said similar things to me, i know myself that hers was the most encouraging and motivating. Maybe it's just me, she is a rather special teacher to me in that sense.

then, just a few days back. She told me, 那时候，听你说你要上honour roll, so confident, 我还有点开心eh. But..... i told her i also quite confident actually, its just that like i nvr finish the paper. no time etc. "所以就这样意外发生?"

I must say, when she said that, i felt a tinge of sadness and guilt suddenly. It's like i've let her down.... disappointment to her. And i know it's not just her, it's to everyone who had hopes and faith in me. Mr Ng told me earlier on that day that my maths teacher expected me to do alright for MYE, but i didnt.

Chen laoshi would most probably be the one who made me sad and happy and encouraged me in my studies the most so far..... And i know this coming promos, i am not just attempting to not let her down, i am proving to myself i can do it, that i can excel in my studies and afterall, its the LAST CHANCE..... Its no longer just about not letting ppl down, or meeting their expectations but to really fight for one more chance for myself.

I need this chance to see my teachers for another year.
I need this chance to get a spot in university
I need this chance to go bagpacking with my clique.
I need this chance to go all the way to the end w 1032.
I need this chance to really, prove to myself who i really am.

I need this chance to really, move on in life.

Hi, my name is alina. NYJC 1032 currently. NYCO Percussionist. Singapore Can Speak Top 16. I LOVE the colour lime green. Wishes to be a lawyer! :) ... more