Always With You

Strumming Some Heartstrings

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

This, is a dedication post. I remb saying the 1st post i dedicate will be for you, just that i didnt realized it would be more of a sad post. When the 1st incident happen, i felt you trusted me more than her. But i believe you are partial.

Sometimes, things happen for a reason, some are accidents, some are meant to be
Well, no matter whichever reason it is, there are bound to be consequences.
And these few days, it has been full of ups and downs.

Well, the call was great, at least i talked for really long, which i hadn't done so in a long time.
But, if there was nvr the call, nothing would have happen?

So you know what, to whoever is out there, in future, if you wanna know bout my friends' personal life, pls dun ask me, ask her personally. I swear i will not even mention a word to you, like seriously. These ppl sometimes, are just sources of trouble. And i mean, SOMETIMES. I didnt say always if you'd read closely.

I always thought one of the main thing of a friendship or a relationship is trust and care. I had the care, but I Lost the trust, cos of peer pressure? This was just accident, cos i didnt know she did not know. So if an accident can cause the lost of trust, then it is definitely something we should nvr let it happen, cos accidents can kill, whether is it in reality or what we imagine.

TRUST. Can you ppl don't deprive me of that? Don't ask me bout my friends, if you want, ask about me. I am more than willing to tell you my personal life, well that's if you are close enough to me. My friends prefer to be "private" and honestly speaking, i must have been too slow to have only realize it fully now. Back in my all-girls sec sch, gossip would have been something not to be missed, leaking out of each others' unglam or more private stuff wouldn't have been a problem. Taking unglam shots were nvr wrong. Yet, i only realized that taking of unglam shots have been so wrong to so many ppl and just an accident of leaking out almost killed me. So yeah, ask and you shall be ignored. This is not a blame, it's a notice to all out.

Now, a question for you to think about: Have you regretted having me as a friend?
Of course I do hope for an answer but that is, if you are willing to answer.

We have been through much as a friend, from the daily "physiotherapy sessions" to the laughter and to everything, it must have been great for me to know you as a friend, a very good friend. I know nothing said can do anything right now, but i hope the trust you had in me can still be retain, though i know it's hard. If anything i do can rebuild it, i guess i would do to the best of my ability, but well, that's hard too.

So, the ultimate qn is, Do you still look upon me as your good friend, someone whom u can at least, give a little trust in?

Take your time, think and ponder over it, everything's gonna be okay, i hope.

I am sorry.

Dear god, i put this situation in your hands, knowing everything will be okay, knowing that you will make things better, I put my faith in you, entrusting myself to you. When matters happen, i know you will be there to make everything okay. I have faith. Amen.

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