Always With You

Strumming Some Heartstrings

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Okay, so it's really over.... I thought asking what happened might help. But turned out, it made it worse... It's really Finished.... I have no idea why, what about it and how it ended up like this. Well, at least not all the details.. I have no idea what he is doing, what he is thinking and what he wants. Still the same line as ever... Irresponsible? I am not sure if it is so.

Looking back at the convos we had, though it's virtual, it's still worth remembering. He wanted to help me back then, he apologized for losing his temper on me.. Now, he doesnt even care about my feelings and just heck care. I should have listen to what Sumin (SM) told me last night...

XXXXXXX says:
hmm...look at the bright side...my classmates some of them got 3Us
yet my teacher don't care
[alina] says:
hai.... i dunno leh...
XXXXXXX says:
don't worry...I try to help you bah
[alina] says:
for me to lean onto.
XXXXXXX says:
in your maths
[alina] says:
okay...
XXXXXXX says:
cheer up
I sort of know of you kinda feel
[alina] says:
okay....
XXXXXXX says:
the feeling of failure gets very upetting
I know it is easier said than done
cos I experienced it before
[alina] says:
well.....
XXXXXXX says:
lol....you okay?
it's like you take a while to typed one word

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[alina] says:
yup yup.....
but yeah.... still sorry sorry!
XXXXXXX says:
hahas....don't keep apologising
I will feel bad you know
[alina] says:
haha i apologize cos i feel bad oso mah....
XXXXXXX says:
I also apologsie
so sorry
cos I also damn stress now
so yeah....any minor stuff will get a bit too overboard

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Ms tan told me this just now :"身为女人，我告诉你，被爱是幸福的"
Well, it is just not sustainable. The one i thought would sustain didnt either.

Alright, enough of my rambling.. I just wanna dedicate this to Sumin, sam and huixian...

Sumin: I dunno what i would have done if not for you! Thanks so much for the time and effort to listen to me ramble on and on bout this, Even when you are busy in sch... You are really someone great!! I wouldnt know how to take it so lightly as i am doing so if u didnt say those words of console and cheering me up! You sure is optimistic about life huh? Haha. Really thank you from the bottom of my heart. This period of time i may still be down and may need to hear more words from you (haha) but i know i will be able to stand back up, fast. With all your positive words, I know i will be able to get over this and move on.... I know i will meet someone better and so will you! (Dun worry, NY got quite alot. heh) Anw, just thanks for everything during the past few days; next time i give u a lunch treat kay! HEHE. Thanks much and loves!

Sam: Omgxz sam, you another one... Dunno what i'll do without you... You know that i can nvr say enough thank yous to you.. Just this matter alone, i would most prob have said thanks 10+ times.. You know what i would say to you so i guess there isn't much to say here. You know, i Will always love you as my bestest friend ever! Thanks for the past few days and everything else. :)

Huixian: You are always there for me when i start emo-ing... I will be fine, really. Don't forget you promised to bring me go sing karaoke next week ah.. I will be anticipating it. I am really touched to see your msg saying that the clique will always be protecting me. You know me best too. You know that i cherished every r/s i am in be it friendship or romance. No one else will know me better than you gals! I know you gals are the best ever. Love you!

To the rest such as cheryl, si lin and anyone else that i talked to about this b4... Thanks so much for lending your ears to me. Next time can find me if you need someone to listen to you kay? :)

That's all for tonight... I love you ppl!

Hi, my name is alina. NYJC 1032 currently. NYCO Percussionist. Singapore Can Speak Top 16. I LOVE the colour lime green. Wishes to be a lawyer! :) ... more